1. an affective state of consciousness in which joy, sorrow, fear, hate, or the like, is experienced, as distinguished from cognitive and volitional states of consciousness.
  2. any of the feelings of joy, sorrow, fear, hate, love, etc.
  3. any strong agitation of the feelings actuated by experiencing love, hate, fear, etc., andusually accompanied by certain physiological changes, as increased heartbeat orrespiration, and often overt manifestation, as crying or shaking.
  4. an instance of this.
  5. something that causes such a reaction: the powerful emotion of a great symphony.

So many of us find it so hard on to grasp, comprehend exactly what it is we are feeling at any given moment. For some us it can be quite daunting however for the rest it seems quite normal.

Emotions can be the cause of many illness, they can have a physical effect of us, even make us do unquestionable things!

Repressing Emotions

If our emotions are not expressed as we feel them we can end up doing ourselves more harm than good. Here are just a few of the symptoms that can occur from repressing your emotions:

  • Fatigue
  • Depression without an apparent cause
  • Speaking of issues/interests rather than personal matters and feelings
  • Pretending something doesn’t matter when inside it does matter
  • Rarely talking about your feelings
  • Blowing up over minor incidents
  • Walking around with a knot in your stomach or tightness in your throat
  • Feeling your anger not at the time something happens but a few days later
  • In relationships, focusing discussions on children/ money rather than talking about yourselves
  • Difficulty talking about yourself
  • Troubled personal relationships with family, friends, acquaintances
  • A lack of ambition or motivation
  • Lethargic – who cares – attitude
  • Difficulty accepting yourself and others
  • Laughing on the outside while crying on the inside

Emotional Release

There is a number of ways we can release our emotions dependant on what they are of course:

  • Speaking the truth
  • Transmuting the emotions
  • Releasing resentments
  • Mediation
  • Shifting your perspective
  • Knowing your fears
  • Detaching yourself from the emotions
  • Accepting responsibility for your emotions

Even sitting here writing this has many emotions incessantly cultivating through my veins!


*ALERT* This will offend some people

What does it mean?

  • a feeling of deep admiration for someone or something elicited by their abilities, qualities, or achievements.
  • due regard for the feelings, wishes, or rights of others.
  • a particular aspect, point, or detail.

This is something that todays generation does not know how to show. It honestly bothers me more than I thought it would. Some time ago it didn’t bother me as much. But more so nowadays its really bugs me and gets me to a point where I have to leave the room.

I wonder if future generations will be like this? I know I certainly won’t be letting my kids end up like that.

Keeping it short and sweet just wanting to vent.


Stress is something that most of us live with everyday.

I want to talk a little about stress today I have been reading and article from Healthspace that seems to cover a fair bit of detail.

When it comes to stress, people are either overly aware of it or totally in denial of it, but the reality is that in this modern, busy society it is no longer a question of whether you have stress in your life, but how much stress is in your life and how is it adversely affecting the quality of your life.

The “day to day stress” is very apparent if you take the time to listen to family or friends discussing their daily routines.

Stress seems to be such a standard topic of conversation; whether it be work stress, running around with children, health or financial related stress, stress just seems to be such a mutual part of everyone’s day to day life and as a result is socially considered to be the norm.

Despite the normality of this stress in our modern society, its essential that we are mindful that this stress, no matter how common it may be does impact on your body; physically and mentally. Furthermore it is absolutely essential that you do all you can to support your body to withstand the physiological impact which stress creates.

Please continue to read more on this topic here

Now how am I dealing with stress? short answer I’m not. It can be quite the struggle to deal with stress. I know I have emotionally upset people around me and that was never my intention.

I hope that in the near future that I will be able to control or better manage my stress levels because one day soon I know I will say/do something that will be indeed regrettable and for me this won’t be an option as I live life with no regrets…

More recently there have been events in my life that have caused me to become so stressed that I have not slept, eaten or focused on anything else in life other than the issue I was faced with at hand.

Stay tuned here for updates.



It all started about three weeks ago now…

Progress, its a noun its a verb;

  • a movement toward a goal or to a further or higher stage:
  • developmental activity in science, technology, etc., especially withreference to the commercial opportunities created thereby or to the promotion of the material well-being of the public through the goods,techniques, or facilities created.
  • advancement in general.
  • growth or development; continuous improvement:
  • the development of an individual or society in a direction consideredmore beneficial than and superior to the previous level.
  • Biology. increasing differentiation and perfection in the course ofontogeny or phylogeny.
  • forward or onward movement:

This is certainly has been, it has been a wild emotional rollercoaster that is for sure…

The last few weeks have been an insane ride. I would love to sit here and write it all out word for word but there would be no point there is many other blogs out there that highlight emotional distraught and I am not here to do that to anyone. I am always looking for the light in the tunnel, I am always looking for the half full glass.


Moving forward though I am looking towards what things could be.

Moving along to current time, I WENT TO A HOUSE AUCTION! It was quite a blast, I was quite nervous attending my first auction. Sadly was not successful at getting a home. But I will try my chances with the next auction. Week after week attending these open homes and auctions is really taking it out of me, the market at current day is highly appalling and I would not wish it upon anyone to try to get in this market. It is very cut throat and plain old simple if you don’t have the money they are not interested in you. What is making it harder for the young hard working Aussie is the stupid immigrants/migrants what ever you want to call them! They come out west and drop an extra 50k on investment properties just because they want the property and well as you might know the real estates can not refuse the offers they simply sell to the highest bidder. So the hard working Aussies like me and my partner simply cannot afford to get in on this market unless we wish to pay an exuberant amount for a property that is simply not worth the dollars. I have a very clear mind about deciding on how much properties are worth, I am not willing to pay way over the top for a property as long term it would be a bad investment. Any who enough about houses and other races because if I continue any longer on this topic I will literally break my new rMBP that I am using to write this post.


Our little Gami is all grown up now, she is 4 months old, she is doing really well. We bought her a crazy big scratcher.


It has been really hard for me to learn the traits and doings of others as I have it stuck in my head that everything is so systematical and organised and when others are not then I cannot cope at all. Many say I am much like the famous television show character “Sheldon Cooper




It all started this fine morning, when I got out of bed to find my neck didn’t want to leave the pillow… arghh damn cricked neck! It has been so sore all day!

Today at college has been very productive and very fast paced. Some of my students have been amazingly active and working towards their completion! Congrats all!

A random thought that has been on my mind for the last few days:

“A couple of days ago I was offered to go over and teach in China for 6 weeks, it was quite the nice package $1250/wk + accommodation + travel. I thought it would have been an opportunity of a life time! I really wanted to go but my timing here for work and looking for a house and the new business is just way out of whack and I would not have been able to go…. :'( However one of my colleagues gladly accepted the offer and is heading off on a plane as soon as possible. Wish him all the best.”

It has been one of those full on rush get everything done days. Hoping tomorrow is a little quieter and hoping I have calmed down… yes I am still very agitated!

Any who enough ramblings for one day signing out now till next time.


Time again

I figured it was time to start another blog this time round more for personal use and my ramblings for venting.

Sometimes my OCD drives me insane when your told one thing and then something entirely different happens is quite the agro setter. Everyday I try to suppress my frustrations and keep calm but it just gets the best of me and I simply cannot control it!

However putting aside my anger and frustrations for now I am happy to say that my little rescued kitty is recovering nicely now from her chipping and vaccination 🙂


I would like to let everyone know that in the past six months to a year I have diverted my focus from networking -> web server management and web development/design.

Reason for this change is due to me being a little bored with networking and looking for a change to see how else I can broaden my knowledge base. Before I get into any details, all I can say is OMG!!!

Again before I get into a few details about my progression I would like to take a moment to give a big SHOUT OUT to Brendan Otoole for imparting some of his knowledge. You have been a great help in passing on your wisdom regarding web server management/design/development!

Since the conceived idea of me undertaking some web skills I have accomplished the following:

  • Started on shared hosting with CDs
  • Quickly moved off this to a VPS (several actually)
  • Complete Linux server management
  • Learnt Cent OS 7.0 isn’t quite as good as I thought it was
  • Dropped back to Cent OS 6.5
  • Learnt Cron
  • Learnt Tar
  • Learnt a lot more about hosted DNS
  • Just finished learning SSH security methods
  • Global off-site backups
  • Managing several domains/subdomains
  • Managing blogs
  • Managing online billing packages

To add a little frustration to the mix because all blog posts have a touch of frustration to them;

I have been work on setting designing and developing a “responsive” open cart theme for my partner as she is running a candle business. Well so much for that idea since 5 days open cart decided to realise a “responsive” theme!!! GRR thanks and damn you! open cart.

However it doesn’t stop there, I follow the instructions provided to upgrade from v1.5.6.4 -> and you guessed it, doesn’t go as planned. Its a good thing that I practice what I preach and have daily backups of everything 🙂


Moving forward I have restored the backup and am working on understanding why it failed the upgrade.

If anyone has any thoughts please let me know.

Raging, Apple, MBP, RAM, Errors!


I am about to loose it!

I have had this macbook pro(macbookpro8,2) for almost 4 years now and never missed a beat. Recently I have been noticing a few issues:

  • Kernal Panics
  • Reboots
  • Complete and utter slowness

Anyway so I finally ran the AHT via IR. It presented me with the following information:


So I bought some new RAM “apple certified” ram at that!

You guessed it, still the same issue with the new ram.

Now if I test the new ram single stick at a time it passes every time, test single sticks in both slots also passes fine every time!

Put both sticks for testing and fails….

I am now leaning towards the fault being either the logic board or the darn DIMM slot. Just what I need right now… I did not plan to buy a new laptop until at least mid 2015 as the new broadwell chips will be out then and will be in the new MBAs.

Test post from iphone app

Hi all,

This is just a test post from my iphone app. I am just testing this as I wish to continue to my blogging on the mobile.

Can you all please let me know that this works ok?