1. an affective state of consciousness in which joy, sorrow, fear, hate, or the like, is experienced, as distinguished from cognitive and volitional states of consciousness.
  2. any of the feelings of joy, sorrow, fear, hate, love, etc.
  3. any strong agitation of the feelings actuated by experiencing love, hate, fear, etc., andusually accompanied by certain physiological changes, as increased heartbeat orrespiration, and often overt manifestation, as crying or shaking.
  4. an instance of this.
  5. something that causes such a reaction: the powerful emotion of a great symphony.

So many of us find it so hard on to grasp, comprehend exactly what it is we are feeling at any given moment. For some us it can be quite daunting however for the rest it seems quite normal.

Emotions can be the cause of many illness, they can have a physical effect of us, even make us do unquestionable things!

Repressing Emotions

If our emotions are not expressed as we feel them we can end up doing ourselves more harm than good. Here are just a few of the symptoms that can occur from repressing your emotions:

  • Fatigue
  • Depression without an apparent cause
  • Speaking of issues/interests rather than personal matters and feelings
  • Pretending something doesn’t matter when inside it does matter
  • Rarely talking about your feelings
  • Blowing up over minor incidents
  • Walking around with a knot in your stomach or tightness in your throat
  • Feeling your anger not at the time something happens but a few days later
  • In relationships, focusing discussions on children/ money rather than talking about yourselves
  • Difficulty talking about yourself
  • Troubled personal relationships with family, friends, acquaintances
  • A lack of ambition or motivation
  • Lethargic – who cares – attitude
  • Difficulty accepting yourself and others
  • Laughing on the outside while crying on the inside

Emotional Release

There is a number of ways we can release our emotions dependant on what they are of course:

  • Speaking the truth
  • Transmuting the emotions
  • Releasing resentments
  • Mediation
  • Shifting your perspective
  • Knowing your fears
  • Detaching yourself from the emotions
  • Accepting responsibility for your emotions

Even sitting here writing this has many emotions incessantly cultivating through my veins!


Stress is something that most of us live with everyday.

I want to talk a little about stress today I have been reading and article from Healthspace that seems to cover a fair bit of detail.

When it comes to stress, people are either overly aware of it or totally in denial of it, but the reality is that in this modern, busy society it is no longer a question of whether you have stress in your life, but how much stress is in your life and how is it adversely affecting the quality of your life.

The “day to day stress” is very apparent if you take the time to listen to family or friends discussing their daily routines.

Stress seems to be such a standard topic of conversation; whether it be work stress, running around with children, health or financial related stress, stress just seems to be such a mutual part of everyone’s day to day life and as a result is socially considered to be the norm.

Despite the normality of this stress in our modern society, its essential that we are mindful that this stress, no matter how common it may be does impact on your body; physically and mentally. Furthermore it is absolutely essential that you do all you can to support your body to withstand the physiological impact which stress creates.

Please continue to read more on this topic here

Now how am I dealing with stress? short answer I’m not. It can be quite the struggle to deal with stress. I know I have emotionally upset people around me and that was never my intention.

I hope that in the near future that I will be able to control or better manage my stress levels because one day soon I know I will say/do something that will be indeed regrettable and for me this won’t be an option as I live life with no regrets…

More recently there have been events in my life that have caused me to become so stressed that I have not slept, eaten or focused on anything else in life other than the issue I was faced with at hand.

Stay tuned here for updates.


I would like to let everyone know that in the past six months to a year I have diverted my focus from networking -> web server management and web development/design.

Reason for this change is due to me being a little bored with networking and looking for a change to see how else I can broaden my knowledge base. Before I get into any details, all I can say is OMG!!!

Again before I get into a few details about my progression I would like to take a moment to give a big SHOUT OUT to Brendan Otoole for imparting some of his knowledge. You have been a great help in passing on your wisdom regarding web server management/design/development!

Since the conceived idea of me undertaking some web skills I have accomplished the following:

  • Started on shared hosting with CDs
  • Quickly moved off this to a VPS (several actually)
  • Complete Linux server management
  • Learnt Cent OS 7.0 isn’t quite as good as I thought it was
  • Dropped back to Cent OS 6.5
  • Learnt Cron
  • Learnt Tar
  • Learnt a lot more about hosted DNS
  • Just finished learning SSH security methods
  • Global off-site backups
  • Managing several domains/subdomains
  • Managing blogs
  • Managing online billing packages

To add a little frustration to the mix because all blog posts have a touch of frustration to them;

I have been work on setting designing and developing a “responsive” open cart theme for my partner as she is running a candle business. Well so much for that idea since 5 days open cart decided to realise a “responsive” theme!!! GRR thanks and damn you! open cart.

However it doesn’t stop there, I follow the instructions provided to upgrade from v1.5.6.4 -> and you guessed it, doesn’t go as planned. Its a good thing that I practice what I preach and have daily backups of everything 🙂


Moving forward I have restored the backup and am working on understanding why it failed the upgrade.

If anyone has any thoughts please let me know.

Test post from iphone app

Hi all,

This is just a test post from my iphone app. I am just testing this as I wish to continue to my blogging on the mobile.

Can you all please let me know that this works ok?

Network Downtime


Hi All,

Apologies for the delay in having the site/blog down it has been quite a couple of weeks due to being convinced to host all my sites myself on a VPS via Digital Ocean.

I have had to learn quite a few things during this very short timeframe, shortlisted below:

  • Cent OS 7
  • Some Linux commands
  • New Dir Structure
  • PHP
  • SSH security
  • VPS hosting options
  • Register my ABN
  • Commissioning of a SaaS invoice platform (big thank you to Zac Brewer)

But however not limited to the above.

I would like to throw out a big thank you to both Brendan O’Toole and Ben Cousins for directing me to a VPS.

There is much more to come, just to short list again:

I would highly recommend Digital Ocean to anyone that interested in getting some hosted Virtual Private Server space. For anyone that is interested Please use the following special offer code: https://www.digitalocean.com/?refcode=fe6c0bce7d96


Learning PHP wonders of what it can do!

I have now fixed my wordpress feed… well almost, just need to limit it now and play with some of the CSS.

Feeling very productive!


Frustrations setting in…


I simply don’t feel like going into details about it all, for several reasons.

However I am just tired of people saying one thing to your face then a week or its almost as if that conversation never happened!

One week its one story, next week its a different story.

By this point its about the time confusion sets in, it in itself is quite frustrating to cope with.

Well I guess this is all I have to rant about for this week.

new beginnings…

polar bear quoting controlling thoughts

So many thoughts running through my head…

Where to start one must say? Some might say at the beginning? some might say no where at all, hmmm…

… Drink another warm brew and ponder thoughts some more

I guess as the saying goes;
“You can’t fall if you don’t climb. But theres no joy in living your whole life on the ground”


Mail Archiving

Working in the TAFE system they only allow us to have a very small mail inbox. To assist with this issue we have forced to constantly archive our mail out of that inbox to an external location. Im not sure how comfortable I feel about this as I see it to be a security breach…. However I have now setup my apple mail to auto archive my mail from my TAFE box if its 180days or older.